Journal Entry

John Adanna

July 12

I’ve started meeting new girls since Lola, and I must say, her attributes were heavily overrated -her cadence, witticisms and style- they didn’t quite scale up as much as I thought they did. I was locked up in her world for too long and I wish it wasn’t so, I guess I should just forgive myself because I don’t understand why I wasn’t seeing as clear as I am now. 

Lola was that goose that never layered a golden egg, making the entire endeavour of climbing the beanstalk fruitless. Getting around to cutting this tree was Sisyphean, but I needed to if I ever was to make a move on with my life.

I must say now that I’m scared to give as much of myself as I did again. But then again I think it is better to live in the present and love wholesomely; the profession is not even for the other party it is me loving life and living it in the moment, only time will tell if they ever deserved it. It’ll be hard but I’ll love everyday of it. Let the adventure begin, but no one else should sell me beans again please! I’ve already had a pot of it.